“I was never doing it for them anyway,” she stated. “I’m just playing it by ear. I have to listen to my mind and body and go into the gym and see how I feel.”
Skinner can also be listening to her physique, and the 2 gymnasts have commiserated about their getting old our bodies up to now — together with simply final week once they texted one another and stated they each dreaded a potential postponement as a result of, to paraphrase, they’re outdated and their our bodies harm.
To compete on the Olympics, Skinner would want to climate one other yr of damage and tear, with achy knees and stinging elbows. And taking one other yr off from the University of Utah would possibly imply that Skinner’s N.C.A.A. eligibility for her ultimate yr of faculty gymnastics would expire. She has been wanting ahead to her senior yr, which might not be almost as intense as her Olympic coaching and, frankly, a lot simpler on her physique and extra enjoyable.
Holding on for Tokyo subsequent summer season additionally would imply laying aside her actual life, but once more. She married Jonas Harmer in November they usually lately have been searching for a starter residence in Utah.
These days, nothing is unfolding the best way Skinner had anticipated. Her greatest buddy’s bridal bathe didn’t occur final week due to considerations over the coronavirus — the partygoers as an alternative pulled up of their vehicles, handed their presents over, waved and left. The bachelorette get together that Skinner, a bridesmaid, had deliberate didn’t occur, both. Skinner was upset that she couldn’t even attend an off-the-cuff gathering for the bride, fearing that she had been uncovered to the virus by her mother and father or, presumably, kinfolk who lately had taken a cruise.
She has leaned on her husband and different kinfolk to vent her stress and anger over the scenario. Her psychological coach, Clay Frost, has additionally helped her refocus when her thoughts begins spinning.
She says a couple of key phrases, like “be the best you can be,” and punches her hand to snap her again. Or, to place issues in perspective, she makes lists of the issues she will and might’t management.